I love my husband. I feel like I can't say that enough. He is really awesome. He is sick today and got up and went to work anyway. I mean sick, sick. He has this military attitude that you must keep going on even if you are sick as a dog. I swear he will end up dying on his mail route cause he went to work anyway...ugh! So we got new insurance. Suppose to be better. Like I didn't think anything got better than Federal BCBS but this new stuff is suppose to be cheaper. I can already get antibotics for a dollar. So I went to the doctor yesterday and hadn't lost any weight. Very depressing. She said that I was eating too fast, and too big of bites. I need to take at least 30 minutes to eat a meal and bites should be no bigger than my pinky. I don't know if you have ever tried to eat bites that small but it is soooo unsatisfying. You can't even taste what you are eating and very hard to chew. It's also really hard to take 30 minutes eating when your husband is done eating in 5. He says it is because he only had 5 min to eat in the Army. I swear food shouldn't be this complicated. Food is my worst enemy. During my life, I couldn't eat enough of it and then ended up eating too much of it. Damn you food! My head is just spinning thinking about it. Thank God for Meds!
Yeah, had a little bit of a break down on the phone yesterday when the husband tells me that our new insurance may not cover my meds and that I may have to switch. O-M-G. Switching meds is like torture. Let's just hope, for my family's sake, that my meds are covered. They totally keep me sane. Well, as sane as possible. Way more sane before meds came into the pic. That you Lord for creating the happy pill.
Speaking of the Lord. I have been feeling really guilty for not going to church these days. Ever since I moved to Glen Rose, we haven't gone to church. We have visited a few but I haven't liked any of them. I guess no one can live up to Gary Turner and his teachings. I still wonder why God took such a good man of Christ. There must have been something I didn't know about. And his family is so cursed. They are dealing with more sickness in the family and drama. So doug only has Sunday's off from work and he doesn't feel like getting up and going to church. Not that he wouldn't if I wanted him too, but I don't press it at all. I guess cause I am not too motivated myself. Hopefully, when momma gets up here I will be able to start going. I really want Travis in church. I was always there growing up and I know that strong christian value is what saved my life and I want that for Travis to fall back on when he needs it. That sounds bad, I really want him to live a christian life everyday of his life, but I'm not nieve to the fact that it may not happen. Ok...I don't want to think about that anymore.
So Travis wants to play professional football when he grows up. Of course he isn't designed physically to do this but ok. I know all little boys want these sort of things growing up but Travis is so capable of so much more. Oh and by the way...he is now excited about reading Hatchet. I really need to be applying for teaching jobs. Yes, going back to teaching. I finally realized that is what I am suppose to do. It took taking a step back from it to realize this. so now I am hoping for a job. My sister said that one may be coming open in her little bitty school in Sparkman. A lady is retiring but she has a semester to make 28 but hasnt decided if she is coming back for that semester or calling it a day. I would love to teach there. Less that 15 kids, great staff, and principal. But I am still applying every else in a 30 mile ratios. Off to job hunt!
No comments:
Post a Comment